How can I tell you what a terrible/great weekend this was? Family around you with all the great foods we love to eat. I was in trouble from the beginning of the holiday, even though I did things like make the strawberry shortcake from a diabetic cake mix. And use low fat or fat free stuff.
Then they all went home and to work and left me in this house with all the leftovers. Today has been terrible! I pray I have the strength and willpower to begin again tomorrow (Tuesday) and successfully complete the week. If I can just do it one day at a time. No, that's too long. I will divide the day as follows:
1) I will make it from wakeup time to 10am without eating things I cannot have.
2) I will make it from 10am to noon without eating things I cannot have.
3) I will make it from noon to 3pm
4) I will make it from 3pm to 5PM (this is my danger time)
5) I will make it from 5pm until dinner
6) I will make it from dinner to bedtime.
Thanks,
Glenna
I can do this and I will. Tell me about your strategy. Maybe it will help. I'm desperate and feel terrible.
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Glenna, as you, I went to bed Sunday night with a dreadful feel of failure. I was depressed about my consuption of food. Why must something consume me to the point of running my life. I lay in bed thinking of all the things I had eaten that I shouldn't have. Well, yesterday morning I got on the scale and seems 2 lbs have found their way on to my body, more depression followed. Thank God work was so busy that I forgot about it soon. The busy day also had me end my day with only drinking about 36 oz of water, more depression. I took a short walk around the property yesterday evening and did a little talking to myself and God. What on earth am I going to do with myself. This was my conclusion. I don't know, but whatever it is, I must do it one day at a time. I reminded myself that with God, ALL things are possible, even controlling my eating. So, today, I have decided as you, Glenna, to make it through my day one moment at a time. And, when I feel the urge to eat something I know I shouldn't, say a little prayer for God to give me strength. I know I can do this. I have to for my body's sake. I feel as I am a 40 year old in an 90 year old body sometimes. Everything hurts. I have no new strategies at this moment. I just felt I needed to get these thoughts off my chest. I am glad we have eachother to share with. May you have a blessed day my friends.
ReplyDeleteAnd I think the worst part of all is how I feel about it all. Like I just pulled up to the pump and told someone, "OK, just pump me full of poison". So I don't really think I even truly enjoyed the food!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you shared your thoughts with me. It seriously made me cry. Thank you for your honesty and support. I haven't been on the scale yet. I'm afraid to.
Today (Tuesday) we can do it, one moment at a time. I pray God will give us strength to do what we must do and will cause us to be very aware of what we are doing as sometimes I eat and don't even THINK about what I am eating until it is too late. Happy Tuesday to you.
It's nearly 11 AM and I am doing great! I made it past the 10AM time! Woo HOO!
ReplyDeleteMom I feel terrible for leaving you with all that food. I feel that you should probably just go ahead and get rid of it somehow. To constantly have to face that temptation is asking to much of yourself, or anyone. No one has that kind of will power. I wish I was closer, I'd go ahead and just take it home myself. I know your instinct says "keep it! don't throw it away, that's wasteful." But that's the poor persons mentality that you're accustomed to thinking with. If you think about it...consuming something you don't need or that you'll feel guilty about later is as wasteful, in a different way.
ReplyDeleteI wish I was there, I'd just go ahead and take it home. But I think you're on the right track with breaking the time down like that.
Well, yesterday was a better day. My water consumption didn't seem to improve. It's so busy at work right now that I just simply don't have time to think about it. And, when I do, it's too late. I can't drink a gallon of water at once. LOL.
ReplyDeleteOk, can I say something. I just don't like it when someone tells me I'm not overweight just to be nice. I want to say "Hey, don't be stupid. Look at me, there are 60 extra pounds on my body that don't need to be there. At what point do you think I'll be overweight. Hum..........like now??? Hum.......If you gotta lie to me to be nice, just don't say anything." Usually, it's skinny people chowing on a cheese burger and sipping on a coke that have no idea what it is like to struggle with weight.
Anyways, back on track. And, Glenna, don't feel bad about getting rid of that food. Do yourself a favor, throw it out. I would. The temptation is too much.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today I wake up with a new attitude and a smile on my face. I will strive not to fall back in the ways of yesterday. Yesterday is gone and there is nothing I can do to go back and change anything about it. Today is where the change begins. That just came right off the top of my head. May you have a wonderful day.