OK, so I got the messages from you guys about throwing away the food. The first thought was in reply to you, Candice, when you said I had the poor person's mentality. At first I went with that thought and then I changed it to "there are other people in this house besides me". You know, someone else would be deprived if I selfishly threw away all the food. It's not all about me...............
And then in all this arguing over whether to throw the food away or not, it came to me. The other people that I am saving it for are just an excuse to keep it for ME. These little kids don't care if there is Strawberry Shortcake in the refrigerator or not. They haven't even eaten one piece yet. And they had rather have those fresh strawberries sitting in the frig.
And that bunny cake, they have not asked for it since Easter. And the fun of the bunny cake was making it anyway, not eating it. And as for Dad, well HE ASKED me to cook healthy! So the bottom line is this:
IT'S NOT ABOUT WASTING THE FOOD AND IT'S NOT ABOUT KEEPING IT FOR OTHERS- IT IS ALL ABOUT ME!
Somehow, this simple realization provided a measure of freedom to choose and freedom to lose. It was a liberating thought to know I was being selfish! The mind is a tricky thing, always bringing things back around to the protection of my secret drug. FOOD. Somehow, this felt like a major breakthrough when I realized my altruistic approach to the preservation of the Easter feast was all about ME!
So, the bunny cake and the Strawberry Shortcake are history. All the mini carrot cakes went to work with Dad to put by their coffee pot. The sausage casserole and cheezy potatoes are gone. All that's really left now is the ham. That I can cut off the bone and freeze in small pkgs to use at another time for seasoning or something modest. It's all gone.
Now, I wonder what reason I have for holding onto these pounds. Is it a security blanket? Am I cocooned inside for a reason? The mind is tricky, I tell you! There's more than meets the eye here. What's the real deal anyway? There's more to ponder.
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Wow, that so sounds like me. We have a very similar relationship with food. Having the sweets in the house is all about me. My husband doesn't eat them, what I wouldn't give to be like that, and my daughter doesn't ask for it if it's not there. So,.........Can I put them out????.....and not buy anymore???????..........I think I should. I find myself sneaking a bite of chocolate, or if I have cake, when no one is around. I think that would be called a CLOSET EATER, LOL. At the end of the day, I reflect back and realize that all that nibbling adds up to a lot sometimes, then I feel bad. I have a bad habit of nibbling while I am cooking. I am going to make that a goal. My goal is to stop eating or snacking between meals, other than fruit or something else healthy, and I will have to be hungry to justify that. And, I am going to continue working on the water to see how I can challenge myself to drink more.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing Glenna. May you have a wonderful day.